I fell ill in 2012 with what was eventually diagnosed as Multiple Sclerosis. I was unable to do anything. I wasn’t allowed to read, to write, to watch television. Not that I would have been able to do that anyway. All I could do was sleep. Being unable to write or read nearly killed me. I lived for words in all their different forms. As I lay bedridden, the stories continued in my head in one ceaseless stream.
After two weeks I was able to read again. I threw myself into reading anything I could get my hands on. While I was thrilled to be reading again, there was a block with my writing. I struggled for weeks with the brain fog, the numbness in my head, with the inability to type anything more than a word or two at a time. The stories were still there, I just had to find a different way to tell them.
I had once seen a documentary about Marina Abramovic’s performance piece The Artist is Present. In the piece, she sits as herself and says nothing. All she does do is be completely present for every person that sits across from her. At first, I wondered how this could be considered art but then grew to see how each person was moved by Marina’s presence and she by them. All this was done without saying a word.
All I wanted to do was write. I could only write a few words at first and could stitch those words together into a poem. However, if I was going to write poems, I wanted to do it a bit differently.
You see, first and foremost, I’m a story teller. I tell tales, spin yarns, create myths. For that, there can’t be just my voice. I find poems are a deeply private piece of that writer’s soul. They are reaching into themselves and pulling up something tangible.
There is a piece of me in everything I write. I’m sure many writers can agree with me on this. There are characters that I’ve created that look like me, some that have my traits, my sense of humor. I usually tell someone that the best way to get to know me is to read something I’ve written. I’m all through out it my stories.
Poems are more personal, however, like a memoir. The writer is laying bare a moment in time, something that touched them. I wanted to tell stories with my poems. The poems contained in my poems are very personal and they are an exploration of strength as I went on a journey to find myself again. However, they aren’t just my voice. Like any good story, there are other characters.
I ended up writing down random conversations I had with people or been part of. Other poems expressed conversations I’d wanted to have and things that remained left unsaid. Some were based in fancy and flight. All the poems had one thing in common: they all involved talking in some way.
By writing the poems in this way, I was able to look deeper than just a random moment, I could look at myself, at what I needed to learn. I’m still learning about myself with every poem and every word I put to paper.
Now, with my third collection of poems, I’m still writing my own story and I have no idea how it will end but that’s half the fun isn’t it? I can’t wait to see what the next chapter will bring.
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Jamieson has been writing since a young age when he realized he could be writing instead of paying attention in school. Since then, he has created many worlds in which to live his fantasies and live out his dreams.
He is a Number One Best Selling Author (He likes to tell people that a lot) and writes in many different genre’s. Jamieson is also an accomplished artist. He works in mixed media, charcoal and pastels. He is also something of an amateur photographer, a poet and graphic designer.
He currently lives in Ottawa Ontario Canada with his cat, Tula, who is fearless.