Review: Shame by Rachel Van Dyken


Shame by Rachel Van Dyken
Series: Ruin Series (# 3)
Release Date: October 6, 2014
Publisher: self published
Pages: 298
Source: book purchased by the reviewer



Everything done in darkness, will eventually be brought into the light.

I ran, but all it did was keep me one step ahead of my past. I tried to start over; new name, new identity. But you can’t change your soul.

A fresh start at college was just what I needed. For a while, it worked. I was the party girl, the one that seemed confident, but it was a lie.

When guys kissed me–I felt only pain.

When they touched me–Nothing but fear.

Deep inside, every girl wants to be the beauty in the story, to find someone that will see you as their world.

But the truth? I was the beast. And as much as I wanted redemption, I wasn’t fool enough to think I’d ever get it.

Until he walked into my life.

I wasn’t prepared to fall for someone. My scars were too deep, the wounds too raw. But he offered me peace, he offered me security. I should have known it was just another lie–I should have known that falling in love with my professor was a bad idea.

But I was powerless to stop myself from falling.

And he was powerless to catch me.

Because the darkness finally caught up to me, and as fate would have it, a cruel twist almost bled me dry. But I’m stronger than I knew. I’m stronger than you think.

You think you know my story, but you don’t….after all everyone has Shame in their lives– and I’m no longer afraid to show you mine.


Review: The completion to Ms. Van Dyken’s Ruin series. Shame… I found this to be the one that I related to the closest. Lisa had scars upon scars. This also was probably the darkest of the other stories in the things that it dealt with. It deals with things that are always on the surface no matter how hard we try to hide them. I was torn apart with the emotional tie that I had with Lisa. I think I may have used a whole box of Kleenexes for this one or maybe I just used my shirt sleeve.

Just like the others I found myself wanting to crawl onto the pages and hold Lisa for a while letting her know that there is someone out there that will love her and not use her. That the scars may always be there but they can be healed when the right person comes into your life. Although friends are nice to have it is better to have that special someone that is willing to protect you and help you move past those hidden battle scars. Sometimes though it is easier to just let yourself be broken… Ms. Van Dyken wrote with such feeling that I was able to feel the regret and the shame coming from Lisa.

As Tristian comes into her life at first he has an alternate reason for getting involved he soon learns that things weren’t the way he was under the impression they were. He was out to destroy Lisa…soon he learned that she was the victim changing in midstream. The connection between these two I felt was the strongest from the start. The twists in this story I didn’t see coming at first which was nice and refreshing.

At times I felt it was hard to deal with the mental, verbal and physical abuse. I cried the most for Lisa and as things climaxed I cried with relief that she was able to finally get her HEA just like her friends did.

I loved the Ruined Series…I found myself involved as if these were my children I found it hard to let them go. These books are laced together with friendship. Beautiful.